In my attempt to integrate the Yogi lifestyle with my chaotic, over-stressed current lifestyle I have come to find that there are many challenges and constant growth involved. It’s hard to find the time to get in a good yoga routine everyday, not to mention finding time to meditate. I find myself constantly searching for time, not always when it comes to yoga, but in general. My yoga practice is usually hit the hardest by this lack of time. So, I have made a point to become more disciplined. I have learned that flowing through life freely is not always the idea situation and though I grasp to routine a little too tightly, I think it is necessary to have a schedule in place to at least follow. And that is what I have done. I still find myself having difficulty with a morning routine, but it’s a work in process that I am beginning to appreciate more and more as time goes on.
Now that I have established (in my head at least) a time schedule, I find that my morning sequence is ever growing. I feel that I continuously add more poses, harder poses, more breathing. I read a blog post at YogaJournal.com the other day (Beginners Mind) on the feeling that yoga has on a beginner. I agreed with the author 100%. You never really ever stop being a beginner. It’s an ever changing, growing business of sorts. Slowly incorporating the ways of yoga in my life has made me look through a different set of eyes. I have found that I make better decisions more often because in my mind I am becoming more of my inner self and less of a person who is made up of those things important to those around me. On the days that I do even just a quick and gentle sequence, I notice that I am less anxious for the day to be over, I make better food decisions (more fruits and veggies, even adding breakfast everyday), I even notice that my body aches less and my mind is not as busy. I have also cut down on my soda intake (can’t say the same for coffee, as I have a slight addiction to it) but in return I have increased my water intake, and notice more often then not I choose tea over coffee.
Yoga, for me has become a lifestyle, not just an exercise. It affects everything in my life. I feel more concerned about my environment, my space, and my well being now that I have introduced yoga into my life. Hannah and I are growing a vegetable garden so that we can grow and eat our own vegetables that we worked hard to create. I have started using more reusable containers and bags more often. I buy fresher groceries and make more from scratch then buying and making foods filled with preservatives. I notice too that even when I feel stress coming on I take a second and just breathe. I don’t automatically get an attitude or upset, I focus on my breath and then readdress the subject from a new perspective.
There are days, at least for me, when I can’t wait to get on the mat. Days like today, where everything goes wrong and everything seems tense. When I get home I just can’t wait to slide into Down-ward dog or cobra. I actually crave these things on days when my mind continuously is saying all the things I wish I could say out loud. These are the days when the only thing that seems to calm me down is some alone time with my yoga mat. Before yoga, I would just take on a grumpy attitude and turn inward and not talk to anybody about anything. Now, I blow it all out, onto my mat, and I feel relaxed and calm afterward.
I can honestly say that Yoga is changing my life, every part of it. It’s an exciting adventure and I can’t wait to see what comes next!